A terrible dream - I still remember.

'Horrible Dream'

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A horrible dream.

I woke up this afternoon feeling uncomfortable and weird.

(Usually afternoon may sound very lazy... yes. I woke up late and I was lazy.)

When I opened my eyes, everything seemed so fine and still however I couldn't get rid of this unease feeling from my stomach. 

'What was the dream about...?'

Questioning the dream and I fell asleep again. Dream continued.

It was a hollow road where I could imagine I was in Sri Lanka, somewhere I used to live.

I don't remember where I began to walk and recalling from blurry image in my head, it could be from my place in Sri Lanka. I looked around to see to calm my self, it was indeed horrifying and unforgettable scene. People were staring at me directly as I walked along the street and they were just standing still transferring an eerie vibe towards me. 

Then, I shook my head. 

I thought this could help me to forget and at least remove this feeling from my stomach.

I opened my eyes. Looked around.

There was.... no one.

The road was darker than before and I slowly grab my phone to lighten up the road.

'Oh shit... I barely see the road. Where am I now...'

I walked where my feet led me and I reached a home where it looked like I was there before.
The place looked familiar. very...

'Hello... Is anyone at home...?'
'.......'
'Hello? Hello....?'
'Be careful... who are you?'
'Hey... you... I know you...'
'Yeah... same here. What are you doing here?'
'I reached this place from my place. The gate was open and it's kinda creepy out there.'
'Be careful...'
'What's happening? What's wrong with people outside..? I don't wanna go out again.'
'Come here. Will tell you something.'
'It doesn't sound good.'

He is a friend from Sri Lanka. We never went to the same school or church but we got to know each other from an event when both church youth committee collaborated each other for a few months.
Mike (fake name), who is two years younger than me, always encouraged me and contacted me to update me with news. At first, I thought he had feelings for me but after a while... I realized that we are like brother and sister.

and this time,
I was at his place. I could hear whispering voice in the house and wanted to ask him who they are but it would be the best to keep my mouth shut and listen to what he wanted to tell me.

'Someone is following my family... No, ME.'

'What do you mean... Do you know the person?'

'I think I know... It is my fault but there is nothing I can do right now.'

'I am very confused. What are you talking about?'

'It's like.. I need to pay her back.'

Her. It's a she... I began to trace my memory back whoever I can remember who's related to Mike.
'She helped me many times.. my family... but there is no way I can do the same now.'
'Who is sh..'
'SHHHHHHHH...'
Dead silence.
After a few minutes, I could hear foot steps sliding roughly against pavement and it stopped.
Some one was opening the door then One... Two....Three... I could feel that the figure was getting closer and closer. My whole body began shiver and Mike was holding my shoulders tightly in case we needed to run away.

'If you don't appear right now... I need to take your family members, Mike.'
'......'
'You don't wanna mess things up like this. Now... You don't even want to face me or talk to me... I've waited long enough... I can't wait any more.... What's done is done... If you are gonna appear, I will have to do it my way here... this place.'
I looked at Mike's face and his face was completely pale but thinking hard to untangle this situation.
'You alright...?'
Instead of an answer, he sent me a signal to move back.

After a while...
'Mike, I think something is burning and I wanna get out this place.'
I was talking to him while looking around what's really happening at the place.
Fire...
The place was on FIRE!!!
I tried to wake him up but he wouldn't move.
'Mike.. hey Mike.. wake up! you gotta find your family! Where are they? Hey MIKE!!!!'
The smoke was too painful that I had get out of the place while I still wanted to drag Mile out of the place as well. One by one, the house was collapsing and Mike never opened his eyes.

I don't know what happened or I don't know what the lady did to the house.
I turned to the road side and it was a next day.
I was at a school with friends but they seemed to know what happened to Mike and his family.
One guy asked me to open Mike's locker to see if there's anything necessary track the incidence last night.
'Nope. I don't see anything. It's just clothes and a bag.'
...

I woke up...
Wanted to find out what really happened to him.
I have not been keeping in touch with him for years and I really hope he's doing fine.

(Cheers)
(Tada)

Selamat Hari Raya

You, A scary Creature

I hate you.

I did not hate you before.

Until one fine day, I crushed you.

You passed under my right foot.

My barefoot.

I stepped and crushed you.

Totally.

I saw in my eyes your body tearing apart.

You did not move at all.

One step.

One very strong and firm step.

You were under my barefoot.

You scared me.

Instead jumping around and screaming,

I crushed you.

You did not harm me but I freaked out.

I am scared of you.

I hate you.

But you guys never leave me alone.

The strongest survivors on this planet.

Please leave me alone.

It's no use writing here but this is my wish.

Do not fly.

Do not crawl.

Do not appear in front of me.

Do not appear on a wall.

Do not pass me.

I may sound very selfish and stupid,

but  I am really scared.

Please don't.

You...

A scary creature.

Things go wrong.

How long and much could it be wrong...
 How long are you gonna have THAT long face...
  How am I supposed to do when I already did....
   How is it that it is happening to me like RIGHT NOW...

So many questions and so many complains passing my mind and I wasn't conscious to think about what to fix or where to start.NOW, I would just laugh about it what happened to me yesterday and I really hope I do not meet a day like yesterday ever. LOL (as if I can control the world...)

Starting a day was fine. TOTALLY!
I was ready to go out finally out of the house (since I was stuck at home for more than 2 weeks due to my slipped disc problem.. okay... this is another Looooooong story.) Frankly, I was pretty excited and had everything in my plan including 'pedicure'.- that was my last resort to relieve and enjoy being polished!

Went to the college for a meeting since there would be a new club established and it's still in the process of being setting up, installing and recruiting members. It would be (soon) opened and BANG! - hopefully we can get talents in our club and develop it.
After the meeting, went to extend my visa - I know this is something I've been doing for more than 4 years and I had no idea how the law has been amended and wasn't informed about it at all.  Plus having a backache (still) tingled me and made me a bit more sensitive.

'knock knock,,'
Went to the office.

'what can I do for you?'
'I am here to extend my student visa.'
'Alright, may I have your passport and student number?'
'Here is my passport and my student number is B11XXXXX'
'Oh, your Sem starts in September - and you need to pay your full fees. But meanwhile I want you to photocopy you passport - every page.'
'Huh....? I did the same thing when I applied for extension a few months back'
'Sorry.. but immigration law has become very strict.'
(what does it have to do with this photocopy?!?!)

So I went up to get the photocopy done.

'Is there anything I need to do?'
'Yes, could you pay for your visa extension?'
I expected to pay for this, so I had cash with me.
'How much is it?'
'Oh, you gotta pay here and also at bursary..'
The amount I heard was definitely more than I paid last time!

(Phone rings... Whatsapp)
Quickly posted what I was supposed to post.
(done!)

'How come I am paying more than I am supposed to? I paid only 6 months back....'
'Yup. But you are here to extend the visa. The immigration only gave you 6months,right?'
(makes sense but it sounded ridiculous.. somehow...I felt like I was conned.)
'But why do I pay more than the last time....?'
'Because that's what immigration said so.'

WARGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHG
Is this how you take care of International Students???
Seriously???




(Phone rings - missed calls)
('sorry, I am in an office...)
(who posted XXX on our page?)
Checked and double checked.... Oh shit.

What have I done....

I totally posted at a wrong page on facebook. WRONG page! which I can't do anything - It's posted and people read the post (of course!) - however, it's lucky that it was removed by one of my committee.

HAIKS! What was I thinking?!?!?!

everything was on a hold mode.

I just stopped where I was... 

Going through What i did.... 

Stopped. I just stopped.

and then, I met my friend who I waited for so long...

as soon as I heard his voice, literally I collapsed.

(lucky that there was a sofa behind of me...)

talked to him for a while.... calmed myself down a bit.

Went to the office again to finish what I had to do.

'Alright, it's just one of those days I meet... okay. Calm down... you can go through this.no big deal.'

Planned to go for my last resort.

'You gotta KIDDING me...'

It was raining heavily outside. 

There was no way that I could get out without an umbrella and I was worried that my back could get worse since the road is very slippery...

hm.. waited till it calmed down. So, Stayed at the college longer.. way longer that I wanted to.

Waited for about 2hours... where I could have at least smiled and let things go of.

NOPE! It ain't happening and I am grumpy now. 

Managed to go out of the college around 5.30 - cancelled my last resort plan and had to head for my class.

Just one class.

Mr. called me that we are having dinner with friends. 

Okay. at least that would make me smile then.

Expecting there would be no traffic was a stupid assumption. Even though this month is FASTING season, there are still people who work late. DUH!?!?! 

Traffic was bad. really bad. I was late. Obviously.

Yeah. 

I couldn't enjoy my dinner or chatting with them.

Fake smile was too obvious on my face and couldn't even elaborate properly what happened to me.

It is ridiculous.

Came home.

What a relief.

My day... My bad Day... is finally ended.

Thank you.