Where is my tranquil heart?

Everyday, I desire to find my own tranquil heart.
To do so, I've named the blog as 'A Tranquil Heart' where I can express my heart truly and sincerely here. I am living everyday with what I can do and that's what I've been doing so far.
or Should I put it as I am surviving everyday at my best...?

It may sound dramatic and over-expressing but here on my blog, I would just want to keep it like that.
Today, my status is very complicated. My heart is trembling with many thoughts and I am thinking and telling myself to clam down first. Where and how do I find my own calmness when my mind is absorbing so many things at once.

Everything is now jumbled up and I am still finding where to begin.
Perhaps, sometimes, not knowing is the best medicine to live one's life without disturbance.
However, I know now and acceptance isn't easy now.

Blabbering here on my blog can be one remedy for me to easy my complex mind.
For I know, now, is that I would just forget what I write here once I stand up from this seat.

Where am I heading?
What Do I wanna Pursue in my life?
What is my purpose in my life?
Am I doing the right thing?
Am I making the right choice?

Those questions would not leave my head and mind until I can vision myself.
Creating my own world?
Fighting against what?
Am I truly living my life for myself?
Am I seeing myself???

Where Am I now....