A giant step

Have you all taken a Giant step in your life?

People might ask...
How hard is it to take a step in your life?
It all depends on your will and following your heart will let you see what and when you need to take a step.
Then, all I have in mind is... "O RLY??"

You will never know how you will face the situation even though your brain knows what to do and you hear enough of what people around tell you what you should do. When you face the situaion, you will be surprised at your reaction and youself how you see things going around you.
And here again, people say...
'Just laugh about it'
'Don't let yourself fall down too easily.'
'Time heals.'
...
My reactions towards all those words above...is... Just a simple nod.

After that, I have realised over and over again...
Hitting my forehead everytime things in my mind disturbs me.
Sometimes, it was too much for me to bear and face it.
I really wished I could just disappear and be gone.
...
What is the use? What is the point?
But... Then... Where is my life...

I gulped.

The moment I felt that everything was just a game, I was able to take a step.
It was a fun and memorable game that I can never play again.
No... Do I wanna play again...?
In the game, there were many me who could die and come back again... But in real life, I can never come back. Once I am dead, it is a full stop. There will be no more of Grace that people saw in the game. And again... That's when I took a giant step.

Giant step.

I dont regret anything now.
I am... Just very curious how my life turn out.
Am I expecting...? Yes. I am expecting.
Am I hoping? No... Not at all.
I can take disappointment but losing hope is worse.

I am just the one in this world after all.
Heewon Cho exist once and only.
There is a new canvas in front of me... Beautifully displayed on an easel.
All I need to do is paint. Paint in my own way. No matter whether people see my drawings or not, that is how i am gonna potray myself to the world.
No one will know how I am now...and I don't trust anyone.
But I aint depress any more. Only I can help myself, no one can.


it is a painful fact.

And this time, I do not compare.
I am just me and me being me.

Going with the flow...?
No more in my vocabulary. I have already started counting.
3 years.

Matoya's Cave

I've always loved Mac's applications and one of my favorites is iMovie!

It's an amazing and user friendly app that you don't need to google or YouTube to find out how to operate the application. All the description and explanation is tagged.

So, today I've decided to purchase this app after so many consideration since I planned to get a laptop for myself and download iMovie, but I don't regret it at all buying this today.

Even though there aren't many contents like MacBook or iMac, it still makes a result look great and i eel pretty much fulfilled.

The video above was taken by my iPad 2 at different angles and manged to combine the videos using iMovie, finally! Unfortunately, despite this song is one of my favourite pieces from Final Fantasy, we did not manage to perform on Dec,6th.2012 @the Venue, Pavilion.

The rearrangement ofmthe song was done by Raja Farouque who plays the Acoustic guitar in the video and I am the one in green top playing the piano patch from Roland Stage Keyboard. 

While editing the videos, it brings many memories how the band came about, hectic but memorable  rehearsals for two months, ups &downs, and the performance. This song was chosen pretty much fast but decided to rehearse later until a few days before the show. However, the tunes are very beautiful and chords are nicely blending in with the melodies that we were sure that the audience would love it. However, due to the time limit and our forgetful yet nervous mind did not lead us to perform the song.

 So, here we go... This song was what we supposed to perform on the day.

Wow, talking about the memory... Has already filled half a page.

Today, the song stays in my heart and its ringing inside...

This video, somehow, encourages me to out some effort in my skills and pretty much motivated by the whole clip. It feels as if my ghost mentor just whispered something to my ear and skied me to loom for it. Destiny? Direction? Dream? Or are they too mainstream to think that way? 

My story goes on.

It is not a new chapter of my life yet...but my third paragraph of the same chapter has just begun.

Where my mind swings, it woul either hit something or air. 

But it still swings...

Is this what I was supposed to do a long time ago...?

Christmas was passed last year.
New year celebration was just a week ago.
And I am going forward with what I have and what I will have.
I wanna take off old clothes and put on new ones for better look.

All this while,
My heart was gone somewhere that I could not control my feelings and couldn't stand up for myself. I will go forward... Keep going forward from now on. Nothing is holding my back and no one is locking myself.

Regardless of my age,
I am pretty confident that I can do it for myself this time.
No more feeling guilty...
No more feeling responsible...
No more tying myself up...
and no more putting myself behind.

Ha......
No more sigh-ing...