July 2013

I am lonely.
I am sleepy.
I am ...

but its July.
gonna make the best out of it.
muach.
comfy...

Surrendibility

A Collection of Ideas and Composing Tunes

No.7

Surrendibility

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For you.

How people live their lives and carry on.

Every time I attend early childhood class, which I took it as an elective subject, it never stops amazing me at the lecturers how they passionately teach students and try their best to make us understand the course and materials. They literally treat us like kids! Not in a way that they will spoon feed us but understand us who we are and talk to us in a beautiful manner that we would never say no but to do our assignment. Oh, well... That could be their strategies to approach us. You will never know.

Oh, something just struck my mind.
Going out of the topic for a while...

There are certain things that I don't remember what I heard but there are things that they just stick in my mind and heart. I agree and I don't agree but I understand you. Furthermore, I would say I want to understand you. Yes. That would be very frank of me.
Why am I writing all these down? For one thing, I know I would love to remember how I felt and how I will be different sooner or later but this is something I would love to keep it in me.
I may be cold and look stupid for what I have done and been doing but this is who I am.
Does it sound emo?
But I just wanna scribble somewhere and I know I don't wanna kill my blog. Ha.
Pretty personal to me.

It's always interesting to look back after a few years where I was.
(Keeping this blog is one reason why I wanna do this.)
I really do not know how long this feeling will last for you but now...
I am calm and looking at you makes me smile.

Sleepless night

Perhpas, Because of the nap I had before, I feel quite awake now.
It is 2.15 am and forcing myself to sleep does not seem to work.
I am constanlty smiling at something that I am totally feeling right.

언젠가는 내가 나한테 그랬었지. 자유인이 되고 싶다고...
근데, 막상 그렇게 되어보니, 쉬운일은 아니네.
아마도 현실에 너무 갇혀있는듯...

It is the time to spread my wings and fly where I wanna be.
It does not excite me but encourages me to think thatbp way.
Opportunities are ahead of me, I can not lose these any more.
My life is more than that and I derserve them.

어떻게 하면 더 좋은 사람이 될수 있을까..하고 생각을 해본다.
답은 바로 앞에 있는데, 매일 난 그 답을 못 본체하고 지나치는듯.
그래 그사람이 내 사람이 아닌듯... 이젠 정말 아닌것 같다.
내가 지금 너무 원하는건 지혜와 자신감.
난 이두가지를 얻기 위해 달려야겠다.

I need to run.
I know I am chaning and feel good about it.
Really. It is the time and I will never get it back.

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