A Beautiful Moment

A short but intimate moment that I shared with you.
It's beautiful.
We were ourselves and felt each other... It is still wonderful to be in your arms.
I really wished time could stop for us.
I am keeping the moment in my heart. In my heart.

사랑하는일

사랑하는 일 = I have no idea how to translate this phrase. To love? To be loved? What's it like to love? Okay...I'm running out.

There are quite a few things which I did not realise when I was in love with one.
(I have been writing quite a lot about this matter, well. I'm going through this)

For now and for sometimes, I have to think...NOT NOW.
It is a struggle to convince my heart to follow my mind but most of time, it goes the other around.

Now, future is more important to me than the past. I can't afford hold onto the past but it's too painful to let it stay in my heart. I wished to return it to me... I wanted but I can't.

Okay.lets stop here.
Ah... Yes. It hurts.
Hahahaha.

I don't know...

I don't know how to do...
어떻게 다시 사랑을 할지...
널 어떻게 다시 받아들여야 할지...

I should stop torturing you because I am only making miserable.
Why am I doing this.
What have I been doing this to you.
For someone who's now appreciated and loved by another, I should learn.

I'm back to zero but plus one.

This idiot pride that I have allowed to act and speak.

Clouded by my stubborn pride, but I've seen your love. I have. That's how much you love me. You have shown me, Farouk. I saw and felt it finally. You tried...and it really shoot into me. You have changed you to show the love to me.

I have not.

It's still fun and precious playing music with you as long as we put an effort. I treasured the moment yesterday. I did.

One thing I don't regret is...
Loving you. I love you too.
But in a stupid way...

For this, I know what I have said and written. I will remember.

Zero

I am back to zero.

It's again breaking into pieces.
I will take time to collect and puzzle them again.

Perhaps it's the time.
After all that, I really need to do it.

Ha...
Then I will do it.
This time...I wanna do it.
Cuz...I wanna be happy too.
I really wanna be happy...

For U

this song is for me.

But it's for u.

Perhaps we are the ones tangled in a complicated relationship.

Everyday I owe you, more than I can pay.

Sometimes like a couple, sometimes like strangers.

Is it ok that we keep living like this?

Even with so many mistakes and so often partings.

You are still there.

I know you are the only one who can help me live properly in this world.

I should hold you if I want to live without regret...

But my rough mind, my shaken look and you watching it.

That's may be a love like a war.

Because I hurt you and because I love you.

Should I leave from you.

Should I leave for you.