You will be if you keep on saying that.

I am sure..pretty sure that you will be if you keep on saying that.
But I am not going to stop that... looks like that is what you are afraid of.
Push me away. Do that.
If that's what you want. Go ahead.
Emotions to me, are now cold... they are heartless.
If that's  what you think and you think that's the best that you can shy of, please go ahead and be my guest. and you are welcome.
Do not ever copy me and blame me.
I am just so tired of justifying myself and try to prove something to yourself.
I've had enough of it and being interrogated by you.
I am just going to carry on and try my best on my side. That's it.
So, please go ahead.
I am tired. really. really really really really really and really tired.
I do not reject it anymore. just wanna think about myself ATM.
Whatever makes me happy. that's all. and I need it.
All my frustration and boredom I receive and feel, I wanna convert them into something that I can utilize.
So please go ahead.

I will be better

Need to brush up many skills at the moment.
I believe this is important to carry out them in a good manner.
I will try to do this slowly.

May be it's not my day

It started weird and everything looks strange today.
I feel like I should be careful.
I get annoyed at the smallest things right now.
Feels really out of the place at the moment.
Things that I wanna do, I would love to do them slowly.
It's not my day today.
I am more serious than ever and other days.
Yes. I am serious.
F***ing serious.

Freedom

It looks like people around me have earned their freedom.... Not me. Still a way to go.

From now on

I wanna hide them.
I will not show them to world.
That was not my intention from the first place.
I am very angry now.
Very... furious.

Only a few people will know - those who really do care for me.
That...I will decide.
Because words can describe much.

Fatigue

Tired. 

My hand is shaky and painful again. 

This is a physical challenge. 

But I can do it. Give it a try. 

You do it now otherwise you won't do it. 

Ha...

Head connection.

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Emotional fluctuation. 

Cry Out Loud. 

Sing Out Loud. 

Laugh Out Loud.

Continuous Disappointment

when would this end?
It's one after another.