사랑하는일

사랑하는 일 = I have no idea how to translate this phrase. To love? To be loved? What's it like to love? Okay...I'm running out.

There are quite a few things which I did not realise when I was in love with one.
(I have been writing quite a lot about this matter, well. I'm going through this)

For now and for sometimes, I have to think...NOT NOW.
It is a struggle to convince my heart to follow my mind but most of time, it goes the other around.

Now, future is more important to me than the past. I can't afford hold onto the past but it's too painful to let it stay in my heart. I wished to return it to me... I wanted but I can't.

Okay.lets stop here.
Ah... Yes. It hurts.
Hahahaha.